Im lost.
I'm wandering around in the darkness,
the freezing bitter cold.
I'm so alone.
I'm walking around interacting with everyone with a smile on my face,
while crying on the inside.
I'm so lost.
Everyone thinks I have it made.
Everyone thinks I have everything perfect and that I'm always happy.
They don't know I cry myself to sleep almost every night.
I feel like im on a never ending merry-go-round..
Spinning.
Turning.
Faster.
Faster.
I can't make it stop no matter how loud I scream.
I'm invisible to the world.
They see only what I put on the outside.
I'm careful to give them the right impression.
I wear the right clothes, do my hair, and even put on makeup.
While the real me is a zombie inside.
I promise myself that one day I'll be better.
That I'll be happy again.
I don't know when that will be..
I just hope it's before the light inside me fades out.